this is my december

well , after long time i'm not writting this blog . so now , let's open the new begin .
after i had a problem with my ex-boyfriend abdul hakim satria nusantara , on dec 22 it's the answered for everything. he was deciding our relationship without the logical reason . he just said
"i'm boring with you . sorry" but , i know there's not the reason . he had a new girlfiend . well , it's too deep for our love story that we're been for 14months less than 1 day . on his facebook , and his blog too . there was nothing the story about me anymore . well , he really closed our story life. it's too deep i guess . but what do i must to do ? i,m just can cry for this bad situation . i dont know this is the best for us or only for him . i wanna to grow up and be an independent woman .. i hope so .

fridaay

long time i'm not writting on this blog . today , i was joining the DUBSTE (dua baseball team ) at gor padjajaran bogor . i came to the gor with my friend satya :D
i was learning about how to throw the ball and more . i like it so much :)
after it , me , ninis , nadhifa , rara , iwil , alitha , and rindy was going to mushola in there because the rain was coming . and , we were eating mie ayam together . after it , me and ninis going home together by my car . it's really a good experience . but at home , i had a trouble with my boyfriend . everyday was same . nothing was changing him again . i dont know what i had to do in this relationship . should i searching the other ? -,- afraid to do that !

saturday 'shocking' morning

in early saturday , i woke up from my sleep . when i looking my handphone , there was 1 message from someone (the number was not saved in my phone ) when i read it , i was shocking . why ? my boyfriend said : " sayang , hp sama laptop aku di curi .. :( " i was really shocked . and than , i called him to give him support . and than , he said : " maaf ya sayang , karna kecerobohan aku , semuanya bgini . kita jadi susah bgt komunikasi . " i just can says : " it's ok honey . " but in my heart , i was really sad . because , he was so far from me . and now , we can't contact each other for along time maybe . i dont know what i had to do . i just can cried every night , and missing him all the time . why it could happen to us ? i just be patient and trying to be a strong girl , also growing up :) i love my boyfriend everytime . what ever he was :)

sunday

first time i was making this blog . hahaha i dont know what i must to writting .
really confuse :) i hope i can always write this blog everytime !